Manic destruction

2010-02-03T10:28:00.002+08:00

Oh yes i m still here if u didnt realise

2010-02-03T10:16:00.004+08:00

2 days of not loggin in to my facebook and u look at the request that pile up , damn annoying uhh ...

2010-02-02T18:45:00.004+08:00

I miss those msges , i miss ur nonsense and i miss those late night calls ... i miss ur KNNBCCB ... I JUZ MISS U LAH CB !! Come back soon , i need u :'(

2010-02-01T09:06:00.002+08:00

A soft goodbye , the tears upon my face ...

N0where t0 hide my thoughts of u , there isnt any place ...

What started of love's romance , has now ended up all broken ...

Whisper 0f the night , it felt so right , now despise is all that's spoken ...

If only we could turn back the time and both start off brand new ...

There many things that we wont do , nothing to say , but i love u ...

I think our love is worth mending , hunneh how about u ?

Don't think our love is ending , coz in my heart is true ...

I really really love u , its something we must do ...

Come take me darling , hold me in ur arm , juz a little tighter ...

We cant go on this way , our lives will be much ... much more brighter ...

Our hearts can mend themselves , the love that we both knew together ...

Let our love conceive , now hunneh we got to believe , let our love conceive ...

Hunneh let ur heart believe and dont ever leave and dont ever leave ...

2010-01-27T04:43:00.002+08:00

There's always a word called EFFORT ... Make an EFFORT to make it work ... Am i right ?

Since meeting u

2010-01-26T11:16:00.005+08:00

I used to think that love was only real in the movies and that i enjoyed being alone , i used to think that i was too independent that i didnt need anyone because i was so strong ... But after meeting u i realize that my attitude towards love was merely a cover-up of my disappointment with relationships , i put a on a strong non caring front so no one would no how i felt ... But after meeting u i could no longer pretend , my feelings became transparent and now i want to tell the world something i always knew but was afraid that love is the most important feeling one can have and i want to thank u for causing me to be honest with myself and others ...

AGAIN

2010-01-24T10:36:00.003+08:00

Starting over and over again and i tot that was sooooooo 2009 ...
Yeah ur words are cheap , too cheap that ur actions cant tally to ur words ... And u know what FUCK U !!

Who could have known

2009-12-08T00:07:00.005+08:00

Let me tell u something , the most sweetest thing in my life was when i met u ... Not knowing that along the journey i could fall in love with u ... We were in the same school , i didnt knew u but i had a crush on u ... And u didnt knew it ... I know nothing about u not even ur name ... Then i quited school and i knew maybe there wasnt any chances of seeing u again ... And i thought everything juz end as an anonymous crush ... But i hope we could meet again ...

A year later , i met u again outside zouk with 2 of my secondary school mates ... and i was with my couz ... U knew my couz and i knew ur frens ... It was sucha a small world ... Thanks to my couz and ur frens , we meet again ... God is great ... Eversince that day we started dating ... We dated for few mths , practically i really enjoyed ur companion ... And u confess u like me and wanting me so much ... I really like u too but something was pulling me back , the reason was my ex bf ... I told u i dont wanna take u as my rebound , i had my own fears ... So i went missing for awhile , u've been textin and calling me but i didnt reply to ur msges or call ... i was denying the fact that i m starting to love u ... So i tried to run away frm that feeling ... We didnt get in touch for awhile , few mths later we bum into each other in esplanade during baybeats ... I was happy to see u again ... See the greatness in god we met again ... Frm that day we get in touch again and catch up for whats had been missing for the last few mths ... But u nvr stop wanting me after what happen ... And i was pretty much suprise ... It took me quite awhile to give u an answer but then i told myself to give it a try ...

And u know what i really nvr thought that we could have gone this far ...

REZQI ADUKA ( Lil duke )

2009-12-02T14:15:00.008+08:00

MsFit + Zero = Lil Duke

ps:my couz face reminds me of eri

Cute right !!

Duke looks happy in his new attire

Whut ? o.O

Rezqi aduka :))

2009-11-19T01:51:00.002+08:00

With just a few words,
Pain can emerge,
Like the emotions struck,
With a million swords,
The hurt is unbearable,
With tears rolling down,
The feeling undescribeable.
Thinking without a sound.
Questions challenged arised,
Answers hidden are unknown.
Amazing feelings are not realized,
Hurt of the situation not shown.

2009-11-18T22:27:00.004+08:00

Recent events have
her completely deflated
and she hates it, hates it
when her emotions
roller coaster
into oblivion
leaving her feeling
empty, flat; used up.
Oh to be drifting high
on the air currents
as one of the balloons
she always envied
for their easy beauty;
floating above the heaviness
of the world they spring from.
But in the end, they too
fall to their eventual destruction;
crashing back to earth,
fallen angels
whom the heavens
thrust back
into the harshness of men

2009-11-15T16:04:00.003+08:00

I came because u ask me to
and i stay because i believe

2009-10-30T17:07:00.000+08:00

2009-10-05T11:12:00.002+08:00

There are some things which are surmountable and some that are not ... Its strange that what some of us perceive as difficult and impossible , others perceive it as simple or character building , or valorous ... I wonder where do these perceptions come from ...

2009-09-14T03:11:00.002+08:00

That look
It makes me fear
and axoius
all at the same time

No words
just stares
grunts
actions

happy
then sad
angry and mad
no reasons
just cuz

bipolar love
not much fun
words would help
but i get none

wish i knew why you felt this way
why you chose this day
out of all
today

did i say something worse than usual
cuz i can't recall
an answer would be nice
a conversation

but no
just wishful thinking i suppose
these actions are as good as its gonna get
read them closely
treat them as words
they can tell alot more

2009-09-13T05:17:00.005+08:00

Light falls
Across her sweet face
Smiling with pleasure at her thoughts
Complete love
Stirs inside her heart so sweetly
Bringing desire in its wake
Quietly
Her soul
Begins to stir, stretching out
For his arms to embrace tightly
Passion breaks
So slowly over her body
Like the waves upon the shore
Ebbing
Washing
Her senses with love
Emotions flow swift through her veins
Traces left
Of the honeyed lips upon hers
Half remembered touch of him
So strong

2009-09-09T07:01:00.002+08:00

Went to bf hse for break fast , was half an hr late ... The moment i reach his place everyone was quite done eating ... His dad went 0ff to work the moment i reach his place ... Both his aunty , grandmum and cousins was there too as it was his grandmum birthday ... His mum cook spaghetti , bonesteak and honey chicken .. food was nice ... nt to forget the dessert which is called SUGi if i m nt wrong ... i d0nt really know how to eat that actually ... After that it was time to cut the cake and some photo taking session with everyone ... Chit chat and bla bla bla bla ... His aunty and cousin went back early so left with me , another aunty and grandmum ... Play pick up the sticks and congkak together with bf and his younger sister ... Had tiramisu ice cream ... until it was time for his grandmum and aunty to go home ... So left with me , i stay till 11 plus ... Joke arnd with the sister and end up wrestling ... haha i had a superb day over at his place ... After that went to meet nano , bran , ju , taufek , usop and siddeq at buai2 ... Lisa juz bought for siddeq a polaroid camera which cost $120 , huhu hw sweeet ... So we played with the polaroid , played with nano yoyo , watch skate videos , flashback bout their funny moments and it was 3.15am .. Time for me to go home ... Lalalalalalalalalala ... Everything was so nice ... Love u bf !!

2009-09-05T13:25:00.019+08:00

BF BDAY CELEBRATIONS

Juraimi

fad&apek

the boys

apek & ju

Nano , acid & Ju

us again

boys

eena & nasir

lisa & siddeq

bdae cake

feeding the munky

thaiibah & acid

gerls

BIRTHDAY BOY !!

2009-09-04T15:22:00.004+08:00

Hey Ho sorry if i didnt update , beeen very busy lately ...
Everythings been great lately ... Theres some shit that happen also ... Whoever d0nt know then n0 need t0 noe ... Meet up with old frens and nt to forget new frens too ... Love u guys ..

AWESOME DAY YESTERDAY

Meet Bf and his family for buke puase at concorde hotel , and as well to suprise BF
Eat and eat and eat till i was so damn bloated
Some photo taking session with BF and his family
When to watch Final destination 3D with BF !!
City Hall
Booze
Talk crap
BF indian smell LIP BALM ;)
Slapping Game , haha
Armpits(secret)
Its 3am , time to head hm .. Fri we can continue , more to come !

Happy 21st bDae hunney !! :)
Love ya always

2009-08-12T02:18:00.010+08:00

effing nice , its nix0n baby !!

hype lah sia !! cant get my eyes off it !!

2009-08-10T23:43:00.004+08:00

I wish someone crush me against a wall and throwed me into a garbage ,
juz to feel the pain i did to u ...

2009-08-09T04:24:00.003+08:00

There g0es my hair ..

2009-08-03T02:25:00.003+08:00

Second heartbeat

2009-08-02T06:46:00.007+08:00

I need u here right nw . i cant shut my mind . i cant sleep . i cant bear this .

WHERE ARE YOU ?

2009-07-31T03:08:00.004+08:00

This is wat happens in the middle of the night
when 2 pple haven met f0r few years ... hehehe
Muke due2 bus0oook skali ... IMY !!

2009-07-30T23:21:00.001+08:00

Cant afford to do it , it's part of me ...

2009-07-28T23:09:00.006+08:00

S0rry if i didnt update .... been away f0r awhile ...
Some shit happens .. s0 yarr was lazy t0 update ...
I rather nt talk ab0ut what happen f0r the past few weeks ...
Hmm s0 last sun i went 0ut t0 watch liverpool and singapore match live at kallang , the singapore national stadium which was suppose to be close but nt close till nw ... it was my first time watchin football live as i dun really fancy f00tball ... And my frens really wanted me t0 go s0 yarr juz g0 0ut and have some fun ... But i did have fun ... The stadium was full of liverpool fans ... Quite a number of spectators wore their fav liverpool jerseys . Even my frens wore them too . It wasnt just sporean , there are even supporters from msia , indonesia & others too . At 7pm , the match starts & everyone were like very excited . For the 1st half of the game , spore played quite well ... the 2nd half wasnt gd after Fernando Torres and Xabi Alonso came in ... Then everyone were like screaming torres and xabi alonso ... Especially the people behind me , super damn n0isy and they are frm KL ... Final sc0re was 5-0 ... i really had effing fun ... After the match me and my frens went to l0ng beach for late dinner ... We had black pepper crab , buttered prawn , baby kailan , barbecue fish , lala , fried rice and desserts ... Damn nice !!! Shi0kerlizer sia ... haha ... Didnt n0e h0w much was the bill c0z my fren paid f0r everything ... After feeling bl0ated we head hm ...
happy reading !!

2009-07-15T17:04:00.003+08:00

You caught my eye right from the start.
Who would've known you would soon have my heart?
From the first day you made me laugh,
I knew my feelings would stay.
But I never thought they would become
As strong as they are today
You made my day better with just one glance.
I always wondered why you never gave us a chance.
I love your beautiful smile,
It makes me feel so good inside.
I want to tell you how I feel,
But these feelings I just have to hide.
I always told you, look in front of you and open your eyes.
You just have to find where the true feeling lies.
I would give my life for you, anything it takes.
Every time I think about not having you around, my heart just breaks.
Everything I have to give I want you to receive.
I need you in my life, so please don't ever leave
(frm the bottom of my heart)

2009-07-10T01:35:00.005+08:00

I miss the way you look at me
With love in your small eyes.
I love the way you touch me
And hold me when I cry.

I miss the way you look at me
And the way you kiss my hair.
I love the way you LOVE ME
And your look that says you care.

I miss the way you touch my hand
And suddenly I feel
Like all the love in the world is next to me
And I think 'Someone this perfect can't be real.'

I miss the way you kiss me
Just right out of the blue.
I love the way you make me think,
'Is this to good to be true? '

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
My heart just aches for you.
For your touch, your trust, your UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
Your promise to help me through.

I miss you more than you can possibly imagine.
In your whole liftime of dreams.
I love you so much, my heart hurts sometimes.
So much I want to scream.

I miss the way you hug me
The way I fit perfectly in your arms.
I love the way you call me HUNNEH,
And enchant me with your charm.

I miss the way you fit around me,
Your soul, your arms, your heart.
I love the way I always loved you.
Right from the very start.

2009-07-06T23:59:00.008+08:00

BEERFEST

Drunk , sober , drunk , sober ... Great times !!

Happy reading !!

2009-06-29T04:38:00.002+08:00

I take the soul of the strong,

to be with the Right.

For I'll be the air,
when youre drowning.
Through the worst wipeouts,
I'll be your only strength.
For every wave that hits you,
I'll be cheering you on.
Get you back at your peak,
to own back the waves youve lost.
In your mind, heart and soul.
There'll always be me.
Youre my Dude for life.
Love u forever Bodoh !!

2009-06-28T04:12:00.003+08:00

For Ive bared almost all of my heart.
Remember this.
Never would I want to let go.
Even how much I mindfuck myself.
And to only realized that,
Ive had activated the self-destruct
nanoseconds before destruction.
Just so you know.
Im Your Fad always.
And Ive got a selfish secret wish that youre mine.
Your heart body and soul.
Your mind thoughts and dreams.
Your past present and future.
Just 7, I want you even more.
I need you more than you know

A big loss for everyone

2009-06-27T00:26:00.006+08:00

THE KING OF POP

The cause of his sudden death was said due to cardiac arrest

Michael Jackson was brought to the UCLA Medical Center in Los Angeles around 12 hours ago. Earlier there were several hundred people there, before it got dark - there was a sense of grief, of disbelief.

But in the last few hours, these people have been singing his songs, dancing, there was a guy on a keyboard earlier, playing his songs for people to dance along to.

This has turned into an imprompt celebration of Michael Jackson's music. He's the King of Pop as far as they're concerned. They're still shocked by his sudden death, but they're here because they want to show their support.

"His family requests that the media please respect their privacy during this tough time," Jermaine Jackson said. "May Allah be with you, Michael, always."

Pop diva Madonna was among dozens of celebrities who struggled to cope. "I can't stop crying over the sad news," the singer said in a statement. "The world has lost one of the greats, but his music will live on forever!"

Pop star Justin Timberlake, who has been compared to Jackson, said: "We have lost a genius and a true ambassador of, not only pop music, but of all music."

California Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger lamented the loss of "one of the most influential and iconic figures in the music industry."

Video of MJ reflecting on his own vulnerabilities in his own words

( http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/8121209.stm )

He has been an inspiration to multiple generation .. Rest in Peace Michael Jackson !!

2009-06-26T05:19:00.004+08:00

♥Not all emotions are what they seems♥

2009-06-22T02:11:00.005+08:00

Waited for lisa !! haha waited for like dunoe hw long since i was at hm ... WAH this girl like old aunty sia so lmbt , mentang2 lisa mraz !! mcm superstar sia .. LOLz !! Reach somerset wait sumore for about 35 mins ... lucky i brought my psp she accompanied me while waiting for lisa and i also bump into hykell ... nt long bf called telling me everyone gg back already he noisy2 already ask me to meet him first .. So went off first to skatepark and meet him , brad , mary and siddick ... Sit for awhile had one stick of cigg then when off to bedok ... GEram sia juz reach somerset then kene pegi bedok ... Brad and mary didnt came along coz they gg to haji lane ... Siddick ask lisa to wait at dhoby and get on the train we were on ... They meet us at bedok ... Me and bf went to my place to get myself change to normal clothes ... Coz i didnt expect to go bedok when i juz reach twn ... Geram pe ... Pathetic saturday night go bedok gt wat ?? But lucky bf make up to it ... If nt he'll see my shitty face the whole nite ... But i was happy to meet u idiot !! Very happy ... Thank u for the nite ...

Misai !!

Madness he brought

I LOVE U !!

2009-06-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

Baby I'm afraid of a lot of things but
I ain't scared of loving you
And baby I know you're afraid of a lot of things
But don't be scared of love... 'cause
People will say all kinds of things
But that don't mean a damn to me
'Cause all I see is what's in front of me
And that's you

Well I've been dragged all over the place
I've taken hits time just don't erase
And baby I can see you've been fucked with too
But that don't mean your loving days are through
'Cause people will say all kinds of things
But that don't mean a damn to me
'Cause all I see is what's in front of me
And that's you

Well I may be just a fool
But I know you're just as cool
And cool kids, they belong together <33>

Not everybody can read into your mind and heart

2009-06-17T20:39:00.004+08:00

The people we love often dont see our pain,and that's one of the hardest things in the world to cope with.We think they should see,they should know.If they don't,we feel as if they've failed us somehow and we have to deal with it all on our own.

2009-06-13T03:07:00.008+08:00

Dearest SIRHAN, look inside
Come with me and we'll walk for a while
And I'll define with you beside
Me beside you beside no one else will do besides

Dearest SIRHAN, when we wake up
Don't be cold and turn away, love
Cos there's nowhere that I'd rather be
Me beside you beside no where else I'd be besides

Dearest SIRHAN, time will tell us
If we'll fill up our empty wells
But until then we're by ourselves
Me beside you beside no one else will do
Beside me beside you besides no one else will do
i friggin love u idiot ...
happy reading :)

2009-06-10T22:28:00.004+08:00

Tuesday Night

happy reading :)

2009-06-03T21:50:00.004+08:00

I m missing my chinaboy :(

2009-05-29T15:05:00.007+08:00

Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved

Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved

Love is you
You and me
Love is knowing
we can be

Love is free, free is love
Love is living, living love
Love is needed to be loved

Fadilah will love sirhan
forever long<3
happy reading !!!

2009-05-24T22:40:00.014+08:00

To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity:

1. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice!
2. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, ask If They Want Fries with that.
3. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks . Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.
4. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write ' For Marijuana.
5. Skip down the hall Rather Than Walk and see how many looks you get.
6. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
7. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'.
8. Sing Along At The Opera.
9. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You have a headache.
10. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream 'I Won! I Won!'
11. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'
12 . Tell Your Children Over Dinner, 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.'

And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity

13. PICK UP A BOX OF CONDOMS AT THE PHARMACY, GO TO THE COUNTER AND ASK WHERE THE FITTING ROOM IS.
happy reading:)

2009-05-21T00:09:00.005+08:00

SAD
sHocked
hard to
believe
One after anOther
sad shock sad
sad sad
sad

2009-05-18T21:48:00.003+08:00

Fuck that shit
drop-dead!!
BYE for now

2009-05-17T03:57:00.003+08:00

i will only love u and thats how its gonna be
Even when u dun always have the time for me
but i wish u cud be fair
i wont get sick and tired of u baby
i m gonna love u rain or come shine
You know u gonna find me around u all the time

2009-05-11T17:34:00.003+08:00

i LOVE u

i juz MISS u

i LOVE u

MISSING u badly

2009-05-10T23:05:00.008+08:00

Happy Mother's day ...
i love u IBU ...
When to grandparent hse today to celebrate Mother's day ...
i ate till i was really damn bloated ... but nice to spend quality time with family ...
Hehe nt long after eating i was so sleepy didnt have enough rest i think ... As last night i went to ZOuk ... it was a great nite , i had so much fun ... i when with my ex colleagues ... When to phuture first but aarghh the song is juz killing my ears anyway it was a residential dj ... Then i went to Zouk all by myself coz the rest doesnt like house music ... Markus Schulz was playing in zouk itself ... its been awhile since i went to zouk ... And guess wat i saw so many of my frens inside ... so i was all over the place ravin with this frens and that frens ... busy sia haha but i had loads of fun ... I saw my ex bf too but i juz pretend i didnt see him , and i noe he saw me too ... but fuck him , i juz want to enjoy myself ... *being a bitch*
Oh ya nt to forget there was some uncivilise pple ... the mats and the minahs ...
So typical shuffling here and there ... But fuck them also ... And not to forget i saw Jonas oliver kleinke after a long time of not meeting him , he's gg back to germany soon in 2 mnths time ... he's planning some outing b4 gg back with some of our frens too ... i got alot more stories to share but too lazy to type ... but yeah i realli had a super great nite last nite ... thanks everyone who made me enjoy my nite in zouk ... Love u people ... Next to go above and beyond !! haha
Nyte people enjoy reading suckers !!

i miss u nancyboy <3

2009-05-08T10:54:00.004+08:00

Morning glory ...
I woke up early this mornin , but i slept onli for few hrs ... wanted to go back to sleep but cant go back to sleep ... When drinkin with my frens last nite nearby my place ... had so much fun last night was laughing the whole night even after drinking and eating ... juz cant stop laughing till i cried ... nvr been laughing like dat for quite awhile ... its nice to meet up with some frens last nite ... After awhile of not going out ... thanks 4 making my day even juz for few hours ... but i realli enjoy myself ... hopefully today is gonna be a better day ... Might be meeting sirhan today but dunoe wat time ... coz he's goin to the hospital , frens mum in hospital and slight chances of survival ... hope she's gonna be alright ... Amin ...
Happy reading ... :)

2009-05-07T21:55:00.004+08:00

AAArrghh !! My internet is so damn slow ..
hehehe i m gOing to be an aunty soon by november ... hopefully insyaallah ...
Cant wait to welcome a new family ... i really love kids ... i've learn something new today frm my older cousin ... we talk about me going back to school ... and i told him tat some frens told me that i go cant far in beauty line ... so yarr he told me it not that we cant go far but its how far we want to go ... not how far we can go ... my older cousin have always make me believe that i can be like him ... He's an artist which last time i dont believe artist can even success in our country but after seeing him being a successfull person ... i believe if u are doing something u really have passion for and being honest with whatever u're doing then we can become something in our society ... thanks Abg ain ... and i realli cant wait for kak fitri to give birth ... hehehe ...

I was home the whole day yest , was suppose to meet sirhan but had to cancel coz of the time ... if i were to meet him also for awhile so might as well forget bout it ... as he has to work the next day ... was kinda piss coz he hasnt been spending time with me that much ... whenever i need him he's always busy or tired ... hurhur hurtful to talk bout this ... so lets forget bout this .. i didnt slept well last night coz i was so restless ... i listen to some music in my cellphone while staring at the ceiling ... staring into empty spaces ... thinking of some things ... still so restless until 6am i think my brains are getting tired already ...

P.S:sirhan i love u so much and i'll do anything to make u happy ... pls understand how i feel ... thats all i ask for ...

2009-05-05T01:38:00.001+08:00

There's so much to say yet no time to tell it

There's to much pain to let out but no one to care

There's so much u could change but no one there to help.

There's always a need to to have everything but no way to get it.

There's always problems that can't be solved.

Your Always believing that everything happened for a reason

Even when it seems unreasonable when it seems unfair

When day afta day there's something new to worry about

Thas when u know lifes jus gets harder but at the same time its makin u stronger

Soo live life, learn how to deal become stronger and accomplish wat u want to accomplish cuz at the end the of the day u gonna relize there's no one to help

Ur in this world alone

Everyone u think would be there no matter what leaves u,

Then everyone u trusted jus let u down...no one else left,

No one else but yourself is left to trust so wat do u do?

U live life alone dont depend on people to help u cuz they wont be there when u need them and dont wait on them thinkin theyre goin to change cuz at the end of every day when u sit and think about wat u been threw ull relize when u needed those people they where never even there...

2009-05-03T23:00:00.003+08:00

i love u baby !! hahaha mwah ...

happy reading!!!

2009-05-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

Is it wrong to have the feeling of jealous ?? hohoho why am i asking myself this ??
Whats with the kisses and hugs ? Wats next ? hmm eventhou she's far but nothing is impossible .. i m not angry or jealous .. or shud i say jealous narh dun think so .. But she knows that we are together what .. then why she have to send those kind of mashy2 thingy ..
Ahh fuck it larr that thing is not gonna bring us dwn no matter wat .. Take that as a test .. So Wassup today dee ??hohohoho nothing much happen today was at home the whole day .. hahaha bf sk8 (trash the pasar highway) today with his frens .. my frens wanted me to follow dem for sheesha-ing session but i was lazy to go .. after 2 hours they called me again asking me to follow dem to marina barrage , then i say i lazy larr .. Abeh they say i ACTION !! hahaha apa2 an sih .. oh YaR and 5 people say i fat already .. wth hahaha yesterday giant say i fat sia .. hahaha and its not fat actualli its berisi .. and i dreamt that i was so fat .. hehe sampai terbwk2 dlm mimpi .. PARANOID ke ?? Huahuahua .. aNd that squirrelman keep on saying "tengok uh u dgn sape " ..
mcm nak sampiong jer ... Ok lah i wanna watch my show nw and eat my banana .. huhu chowwz!!

Rainbows

2009-04-28T23:53:00.006+08:00

Rainbows fade into the skyClouds disperse

Eagles fly

Majestic freedom gracing wings

Re-rooting us

Such simple things

The gracious sway of wise old trees

Settles

What we can't appease

Branching arms that draw you in

Inspiration

Purged your sin

Splayed out in your form of art

Painting meadows

Rhyming heart

The world a playground for a mind

That longs to touch

Or hopes to find

Some sense of beauty in this strange

Cosmic stewOf constant change

Every inch of life we know

Turned into

The dreams we sow

WHAT A DAY !!

2009-04-27T01:09:00.004+08:00

I wanna go back to school badly ... but shit the school cost me $6k ... this is what i want so badly .. its a school of make-up with overseas cert .. isnt that great .. i have to get into this school ASAP ... Coz i have passion in it , and i believe if i have the passion in what i want to do i can be a sucessful person in life ...

Today isnt a day for me , was rotting at hm the whole day ... Watchin tv , surf the net with my 2 younger sister .. its gd to have both my sisters arnd me at least .. My phone was also so quiet today .. how boring my day can be today .. So pathetic ...
Lets juz call it a day for nw ..

Sorry if i m not gd enuff for euu ..

2009-04-26T23:34:00.004+08:00

I think i've fail to be a gd gf .. Why cn't i get the same attention like his friends ? Why siaa ? I also wants him to spend more time with me .. But i dont seems to get it .. Everyday i ask the same question to myself .. Im tryin so hard to play my part .. But where do i stand ? No where i guess .. Im nothing compare to his friends .. I think i cn't make him happy like his friends do .. My feelings i dont even think he cares about how i feel .. The only thing he cn say is just sorry .. He say take things easy .. But he's taking things more easy .. Today for the first time i felt useless .. The sadness ur gf feels only god knws .. And i hate this feeling ..

Inside

2009-04-26T01:58:00.004+08:00

I will do watever to make euu happy ...

Seeing u happy is enough to make me happy ...

And i m learning euu ...

I let my guard down for euu and in time you will too ...
If euu dont mind can euu tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that euu believe in ...

Would euu make a difference in the world I'd love for euu to take me to a deeper conversation ...

Only euu can make me ...

Time will make everything even better than nw ...

Finally i m back

2009-04-25T04:01:00.012+08:00

Again our plan to night safari has to be cancel due to the time , but its ok theres always a next time kan sirhan eh ...

We went for a movie , we watch TAKEN ... it was not a waste of money to watch that movie ... rating 8/10 ...

UNAGI is so yuckss !! Sirhan ate yucky UNAGI but still i love his kisses tat day ..
We ate at sakae sushi till we cant eat ... Oh ya and sirhan cant get his eyes of frm looking at the yummy PETAI at sakae sushi ... hehehe later wait i buy for u petai u eat ok syg ?? hoho
After food we went to look for something to shop ... i bought one pants frm secret island , he chose it too ... then we head to mustafa jalan2 onli loh see banglas ... hehehe

After that we spend quality time together ...
Ok tats all , finish already ..
p.s: i love u sirhan <3

SKETCH LURVE !!

2009-03-22T17:43:00.003+08:00

WANTED

DEAD OR ALIVE

reward $100,000

Pls call 1800-pervan-kumaarr !!!

SUNSHINE :)

2009-03-21T04:31:00.003+08:00

You're the sunshine on the rainy days ..

The one that makes the Rainbow stay ..

Bringing hope into bad situations and always says ..

The nicest,kindest things anyone would love to hear ..

Your smile,laugh, and words,so kind and sincere ..

Makes me smile,with everything you share ..

Anyone can tell you truly care ..

U put a smile on my face ..

You never get angry,or get on my case ..

All of this above make me CINTA u :)

if U can REALISE something

2009-03-19T23:47:00.007+08:00

My first thought of you had me tripping over my feet.

My stomach raced with butterflies and my heart skipped a beat.

We stayed friends for awhile and got along just fine.

But everytime we talked you sent chills up and down my spine.

We both decided to be more than friends and now we're even happier than before.

I knew from the first day we met that my heart would end up being yours.

Moments of life

2009-03-17T19:03:00.006+08:00

Hello strangers ..

Yesterday was quite a day for me , for the first time i went to Sirhan hse to meet up with his family .. Was nervous thou .. haha but it turn up quite well ..
Reach his place at about 1345hr .. His mum was very nice , friendly and humble .. I didnt feel tat nervous anymore after the warm welcome .. :)
And not to forget his younger cheeky sister who keeps smiling at me .. his older couz was zzzZZZ
Then his mum serve me some food and drinks .. Ahaa then his mum interview me .. hahaha
Not long after the conversation wit his mum , his aunt came hm frm work .. Jeng jeng jeng his aunty saw me teros she said "han ni gf kau eh ? " .. hahaha
His aunty is very open and super friendly another form of words for this is (sembarang !! )
I was interviewed for the 2nd time .. again !
After everythings done i went to sit at the living rm with Sirhan to watch national geographic , MTV and okto after that .. his hse was quiet while we were watchin tv as everyone was having their short nap .. At about 1600hr his mum was up already to cook for dinner .. She's cooking asam pedas .. Sounds nice .. It was about 1745hr .. hahaha i was resting my head on the pillow when his dad came hm teros duduk straight sia .. LOL !!
I didnt expect his dad to welcome me bcoz in pictures his dad looks like he eat Humans .. hehe then his dad ask where i stay and all .. with a smile on his face that made me smile too .. After that everyone settle dwn at the living room to watch this cooking show on Suria .. I felt really welcome .. :)
It was time for dinner , his parents set up the table and prepare dinner .. the food was nice .. after dinner is done i help to wash the dishes .. then when to sirhan rm with his younger sister and older couz talk crap till its was time to go home .. what a day !!

BORED

2009-03-12T02:36:00.004+08:00

BORED
boyfriend SICK .. Sleeping ..
kesian
Was at home the whole day,hope tomorrow is gonna be a betta day .. nothing much to post today ..

A punch on the cheek frm ur LOVE ones :)

2009-03-11T15:19:00.013+08:00

(the apek tat punch me)cute huh ??

Well HELLO people ..
Last night i cudnt even get an answer .. haha Ok lets get started ..

Last night i went to cuscaden with the HAPPY JUNKS ..
Met brad,mary jane,nano and SUCKERLOVER outside borders,meetin the rest at cuscaden itself .. After meeting them brad's face was like kuih tutu basi . . He had a minor stupid quarrel with mary jane because he was late and made mary jane ponder all by herself .. haha but the merajok session lasted for awhile only .. =)

A tuesday night at cuscaden when well like how it use to be but only few person wasnt there especially ACIT .. it was quite a quiet night but it was still fun ..
I was of course happy coz my SUCKERLOVER was there =)
So we sit,eat,drink and talk craps all night .. And as i was happily talkin i accidentally hit a mug beer with my hand and the beer spill onto mary jane dorothy perkins dress .. OH OH b4 the mug fall to the ground SUCKERLOVER catch the mug wah wah dah mcm flash sia .. haha i then say sorry to mary jane coz tak sengaje what .. hehe sorry again mary jane ..Giant and yazid was all over the place with their frens .. nano wants to go home but sadly the bus didnt turn up to pick him up so he stayed with us .. hahahaha .. Brad and mary jane always together like BELANGKAS ..

After the kecohrable moments ended .. i was talkin to this chinese lookin malay boy mcm yeye pantat je ni melayu muke dah lah mcm Apek2 .. haha,everyone was flyin high already even me .. Suddenly that Apek say aku "tumbok" muke kau,i replied tumbok arrh !! Diisskh !! Ouch he punch me on my cheek .. =( .. i was angry already coz i didnt expect that to happen,i when outside and smoke .. tat yeye pantat Apek came outside to apologise .. hahaha muke dier dah lain but i noe he didnt do it on purpose .. "i tau u siol" .. Everything was back to normal but still my cheek was in pain its time for the HAPPY JUNKS to end their nite .. Everyone went home smiling .. Thats it for the story telling ..

2009-03-09T23:21:00.007+08:00

Hey !

Today is my 1st time creating a blog .

Well , this will be my 1st post(;

Today , i just slack at home just surfing the net .

I was freaking BORED siaaa .

Suckerlover was sleeping as it was raining cats & dogs .

Damn it was really a good weather to sleep .

Boleh tido mampoz . Lols !

Didnt get to meet my suckerlover .

So , just end up staying at home .

Tomorrow i need to get some booze with HAPPY JUNKS at Cuscaden .

Jyeah !

Tk sabar pehh ^^

Thats our daily tuesday routine (;

Okae then .

Need to get some sleep now .

Yaagarr !!(;

(will be posting some pics tomorrow , maybe(;)